3/05/2008

Sad Super Family...

I haven't posted in a while, but there's a good reason. I'm ready to tell you now...

Last weekend, we found out I'm pregnant. Before you congratulate me, let me finish the story. I took the test on Saturday (2/23) and for the next 3 days we were in heaven! We had decided to start trying in December, so we were extremely happy when it only took a few months. From our estimations, I was about 5 weeks along.

Then I woke up at 2am on Wednesday with cramps...cramps like I hadn't had in years...cramps like the ones you have before you go on the pill. I freaked out and ran to the bathroom and low and behold, I was spotting. I woke The Farmer up and told him what was going on. We were both scared. I called the doctor first thing in the morning and was told that this is relatively normal. I was told to take it easy and stop at the hospital for a blood test on my way to work the next morning. I had the test on Thursday and was told that my hCG levels were normal. Of course, I was still spotting and nothing they said could make me feel better. They decided to repeat the blood test on Monday and told me to take it easy for the next few days and see what happens.

I had a repeat test on Monday and the news was not good. My level should have doubled or tripled, but it had only gone up a few points. The doctor strongly felt I was starting to miscarry and I prepared for the worst.

I had another test this morning and my levels have dropped significantly. So, I'm definitely miscarrying. The good news (if there is such a thing as good news with a miscarriage) is that the doctor feels it was a chemical pregnancy due to a blighted ovum and there's no reason to think we can't successfully try again.

Why am I telling you this? Well, it actually helps me to "put it down on paper". Additionally, I don't know anyone who's gone through this. I know a few men who's wives have gone through it, but I don't know the wives well enough to talk to them. So, if you've gone through a miscarriage and don't mind sharing your story, I'd love to hear it. Leave me a comment, or if you don't feel comfortable doing that, email me at orkmommy@gmail.com.

Thanks for listening!

7 comments:

  1. I haven't gone through it but still wanted you to know that I feel for you. I can't imagine what it feels like to lose something that you were so excited about but I imagine it must make your heart heavy.

    I am so glad you shared with us all and that you get comfort out of putting your thoughts into words.

    I was wondering where you were - I thought you all might be so addicted to your new Wii that you couldn't rip yourself away.

    Wish that WAS the reason for your absence.

    Please take care of yourself and allow yourself the chance to be sad. But remember what your doc said and know that hopefully you will have a healthy full term pregnancy in the future.

    I'll be thinking of your whole family.

    Hallie :)

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  2. Thanks Hallie! I appreciate your thoughts!

    We have been playing the Wii though. Super O is addicted to bowling. She's getting pretty good too!

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  3. Been there done that ... a few times. (5 pregnancies and 2 successful pregnancies - they're awesome college-age girls :) My last miscarriage was discovered at an ultrasound in the almost 5th month, where we could see the baby with the thumb in the mouth, but it became obvious there was no heartbeat (this was the saddest loss for me). I won't try to minimize your sadness or disbelief or frustration or anything - you're allowed, after all. Take care of yourself, be good to yourself ... jane

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  4. Jane - I thank God everyday that mine happened when it did and not later in the pregnancy. I sincerely feel for you and your losses and don't know how anyone gets through that.

    Thanks for sharing!

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  5. My heart goes out to you. I don't have any kids, but I can just imagine your sorrow.

    Take good care of yourself. I am wishing you the very best.

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  6. I had to follow you back becaus eof your comment on my last post.

    Losing a pregnancy is my own personal single greatest fear in all of this. I don't really know how you coped.

    I admire you for doing so, and I wish you all the best of luck in the world if you decide to try again.

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  7. Ah, This is exactly what I was looking for! Clears up
    several misnomers I've seen

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